Close Quarters (Mother’s Day Reflections)

My mom, my little brother, and me, circa 1970.

This Mother’s Day, I find myself equally grateful for my own mom and for the blessing of being a mom. I wrote the following piece just a little over 20 years ago, when I was expecting my Ben. 

Close Quarters

The baby is so active tonight, dancing his fantastic little dance in my ballroom belly, my own heart beating time. I am suddenly sad at the thought of his birth, of his living anywhere but inside me. We are so close; the connection is so strong. He is so much a part of me.

I am picturing my mother, waking my father, pressing his hand to her tummy and me pressing back. I am remembering her brave, teary smiles on my first days of school (kindergarten, high school, college), and how she fussed with my hair the morning of my wedding day, overjoyed and heartbroken.

How does a mother ever let her baby go? I wonder. So I call mine and I ask her.

She laughs.

And then she asks me if I’m getting any sleep, and if my leg cramps are better, and do I want to go shopping for a stroller tomorrow.

And I tell her that no, I’m not getting any sleep, and no, my legs aren’t better, and yes, I’d like to go shopping

My mom, my Beth, and me, circa 2017.

tomorrow.

We hang up and I realize she never answered my question.

How do mothers ever let their babies go?

Maybe they never do.

A New Light on a Dark Friday Cry

Today’s Throwback Thursday is a piece I have revisited each holy week over the past few years. As we remember Jesus’ anguished cry from the cross, we are once again extended an invitation to delve a little deeper into the mystery of just what he might have meant.

Psalm 22, …

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A Persistent Problem (New FT Column)

Happy Second Week of Advent, Dear Friends. This season of waiting seems like an appropriate time to share my new Faith Today column – which asks How should we pray when God seems silent? Here it is …

I am the mother of two very persistent children. …

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A Bonafide Life Hack – Join me in the Book Club

Generally, I don’t believe in “life hacks” – I figure all the things that really matter take good-old-fashioned effort and diligence. I have, however, found one “life hack” that really works …

If you wish you could find a way to make room in your life for meaningful reading, you …

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When dear old friends do cool new things

A quick post to share a couple of very cool news items with you.

First, a chance to back Rose Capanna’s book.

My dear friend Rose has been my webmaster since I knew what the “web” was. In fact, those of you who have known me for a …

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